Mary suffered from blackouts for many years before finally learning some techniques to get control of them. Like many patients with dissociative attacks, Mary's blackouts were initially wrongly diagnosed as something else, in her case, they were put down to faints.
Helen suffered from attacks for two years before things started to improve for her.
Annette describes having dissociative seizures for many years. Her attacks are still ongoing
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The following patients have written their own stories for this website and have kindly agreed to let them appear here in the hope that it can help others understand their own symptoms. Their details have been anonymised and stories grouped by main symptom (seizure. movement disorder, limb weakness/pain)
Gayle describes going from being a healthy active person to devloping functional movement disorder (fixed dystonia) with considerable disability and episodic weakness associated with dissociation. She describes going through the process of being 'in the dark' about what was wrong and now learning to work round her problems (to some extent) now that she has a better understanding of her symptoms
Irene describes severely disabling functional neurological symptoms, so severe that she is bedbound. Whilst many functional symptoms are challenging to improve from, and fixed dystonia particularly so, please bear in mind that it is extremely unusual for functional symptoms to be this severe. Irene describes a common experience of feeling disbelieved by doctors and how, at least knowing what is wrong with her has been of some benefit even though her symptoms have not improved.
Charmaine describes developing a functional movement disorder which sometimes escalated in to severe episodes with blackouts. She also had severe fatigue. She describes some things that she has found that have helped including distraction and relaxation techniques. Things are now improving.
Marie is from the Czech Republic. She had problems with gait disorder, fatigue and attacks of abnormal movements. She has done well with rehabilitation and physiotherapy. You can read her story below. Marie also sent in a video of her gait problems which you can see here and on the functional gait disorder page
Steve describes developing 'myoclonus' which means jerky movements of the body combined with progressive disability that led him in to a wheelchair. He describes how he learned to gain control of his movements and walking again with the aid of physiotherapy and a team approach from health professionals familiar with functional disorders
Stuart describes progressive problems with functional tremor which eventually improved following a greater understanding of the nature of the diagnosis combined with communication between his neurologist and employer.
Hannah describes how she developed spasms in her neck and shoulder leading to a diagnosis of functional dystonia. She describes her battle with health anxiety and eventual improvement once she gained control of the situation. Hannah wrote to me 6 years later with a message of hope reflecting on what happened and to let me know that she had made a sustained recovery.
Rodneys's story - Functional Gait Disorder. Rodney describes how a heart condition triggered his functional gait disorder. Eventually he received a diagnosis and explanation that enabled him to benefit from physiotherapy
Jenna was a teenager when she developed FND. Here, Jenna's mum, with her permission describes what happened to Jenna with tremor and paralysis, how she improved with treatment, then relapsed badly after a second accident with paralysis and urinary retention. Eventually, and after a long time, made a good recovery with more therapy. For Jenna, it was important to recognise how much pressure she had been putting on herself - learning to listern her body, setting realistic goals and learning that you dont need to be perfect were all important for her
Marie has had recurrent episodes of limb weakness along with memory symptoms for many years. She describes thet frustration of multiple neurological referrals in her story. she subsequently wrote in on the feedback page (19th Dec 2010) with a follow up post.
Sarah describes quite a common story. She had a medical problem, in this case with her kidneys, which triggered functional symptoms including left sided weakness and pain. She is still struggling with her symptoms some years later
Philip had experienced some other medical problems including cancer and was in hospital because he was so disabled by functional limb weakness. His wife describes through a series of emails finding out and coming to terms with the diagnosis. She describes improvement over time
Vic describes how she developed pain and then progressive weakness combined with multiple symptoms. She describes how she has been gradually improving with the help of physiotherapy since receiving the correct diagnosis.
Cherry describes longstanding symptoms with associated disability. She describes some renewed optimisim now she feels she has a better undertstanding of the problem along with access to physical rehabilitation
Hazel's story shows that it is possible to recover from complex regional pain syndrome. Hazel describes how understanding that the problem was coming from her brain and nervous system, rather than damage to her hand, along with the right physiotherapy and lots of determination were the key ingredients to her recovery
Loretta describes worsening symptoms of leg weakness and numbness over an 18 month period. She describes difficulty finding health professionals who could offer understanding or hope. More recently she has developed bladder symptoms
Becky's story shows that even after many years with worsening symptoms it is possible to find a way to find hope and gain improvement with the right rehabilitation. With Becky's permission I have left on the name of our team in Edinburgh who were able to help her.
George's Story - Functional limb weakness and speech problems with chronic pain. George had an accident at work when he hit his head. This led to a worsening of a chronic pain problem and then FND with walking and speech problems. He explains how it took him a long time to get his head round the diagnosis but how eventually he did and is now making slow progress.
Dr Henrik Vogt is a Norwegian general practitioner with a research interest in functional disorders.
CFS/ME describes persistent and disabling fatigue, usually with many other symptoms such as poor concentration. There are many online personal stories testifying to how horrendous life with CFS/ME can be.
But patients faced with CFS/ME have often found it hard to find stories of recovery from which they might learn.
Dr Vogts website Recovery Norway - www.recoverynorway.org - aims to publishing stories of improvement which may be helfpul to some readers of this website to try to redress the balance.
John's Story - John describes his own experience with cognitive symptoms which were initially suspected to be due to dementia by his family doctor. John describes his experience with diagnosis of FCD and subequent treatment